Showtunes and life.

Well. As I was writing that, I was watching my dvd of Songs for a New World that I did with Tony, Deidre, and Farns. Sometimes I just put it on when I'm feeling nostalgic. Does that make me a total cheeseball? I guess I don't really care. It really makes me happy.

As I got a little weepy, this song came on:

It's about one moment, the moment you see this world will be fine
And in that one moment, you turn and you see a boundary line
And you've got one second to try to decide: be safe or be free, the new or the old
And the wind starts to blow
And, oh, you're suddenly a stranger
With time to learn to touch the sky
If you didn't try, then you'd never get to fly
So you pick a spot to roam
And you're welcomed home
To a new world calling me to follow
There's a new world, just behind the door
A new world calls me
And I'm ready to explore.

I don't think I've used musical theatre lyrics to describe how I'm feeling since I was 13 years old and had a livejournal.

But really, those lyrics helped me so much when I was graduating from college, and they are as true as ever right now. SOCSA was where I found who I am, who I want to be, and what I am called to do. But I knew it was time to go. It really was time to decide to be safe or be free, the new or the old.

I think my favorite line right now, though, is "with time to learn to touch the sky."

I need to allow myself the grace of time to figure out what I want to do. For God to show me what to do. To finally feel at home.

Woof.

Thanks for reading, friends.